Me=Stalker

So years ago, I had this friend in grad school. We hung out here and there, she worked with me on my website. She got married, and it didn't work out for her. I remember talking to her about the marriage and how sad it was. She moved away and went to try her PhD in DC. We stayed in touch for a while after, and eventually she moved back to Texas. Somewhere along that move to Texas, something happened and we were no longer friends. I don't know what it was, but I think I said or did something that offended her, and she just decided it wasn't worth it to explain. I am not someone who habitually offends someone, so I felt bad about it, but didn't really know how else to deal with it than just get over it.

I watch frequently this video for the babies that has in it a little girl with this friend's name. Today, I saw it and thought "Gee, I wonder what ever happened to her." I googled her, found a couple of articles about her-- enough to be able to track down her current website. You're never completely anonymous if you publish on the web, and google is quite the tracker.

So on a whim I wrote to her. She looks happy on her website; her life seems to be going well, for which I am happy. I wrote that I hoped whatever it was that offended/hurt her was long past and we could be friends again.

In short, I felt a bit like an email stalker. I hope she doesn't feel that way, and I really hope she decides to write back. I valued our friendship at the time, and am not looking to be her best buddy or anything. But growing up the way I did, I lost a lot of friends to moves and distance. I have always regretted losing friends, and hated it that I didn't know what happened. So we'll see.

Right now I feel a bit anxious about it though. Normally I probably wouldn't have bothered, but Andrew is leaving town for two weeks (yes, a nightmare time... we'll survive, but it'll be tough!) and I'm feeling at a loss for things to do to keep me from falling into crazy mommyland. :) So.

We'll see. She might write back and she might not. I hope she does. This way, I can feel like a good story & not a stalker.