Did You Ever?: A Grouch Fest

Have so many very complicated things to do, that would take up a lot of time, that you basically really really felt like doing NONE of those things in order to just be contrary? It's a very self defeating (and grumpy) sort of feeling. I have a huge amount of tasks to do right now, in part thanks to Andrew being gone for the next 6 weeks. Here's a short list:

1. write dissertation (Constant, ongoing, but I was planning to write a BUNCH during the next few weeks and try to get the damn thing almost to a done-ish phase).
2. find another rent house before we have to pay huge taxes on the house we sold. (This is Andrew's task, which he thought he had completed, and which requires searching listings and viewing places and lots of research and legwork. I learned last night that I am going to have to do it, and do it in something like two frickin' weeks. Did I mention that I hate hate hate doing things like this?!)
3. research small claims court issues in our area for a complaint regarding said former rent house. Also-- go to dispute resolution appointment this week. Waste of time since other person in dispute has refused to participate, but I have to "go anyway, to show our good intent." Bleah!
4. figure out how the heck to get my medical insurance issues to work. This requires researching poorly written, seemingly deliberately deceptive websites and brochures on what I need to do. Cause I need something like 1,000 bucks worth of tests done this coming week, and my insurance, which I thought would kick in on the 1st, actually did NOT kick in the way I thought it would. Thank you bureaucracy!
5. clean up the rent house we DID buy, and find and background check and lease to new tenants. You can probably imagine how much work this will be. I can.

Steps 2-5 make it difficult for me to complete step 1. In case that wasn't obvious. And step 1 is supposed to be the most important thing for me to do at this moment (aside from being an incubator for the reasons this dissertation must be close to done by June-ish). These steps do NOT include all the things I need to do today, or daily regular stuff like "go to grocery store. Find food. Eat it. Sleep."

You know, those "basic necessities" that used to (when you were young and foolish) seem irrelevant and didn't take any time at all, leaving you with hours to sit and play video games, or read fun books, but now take up hours and hours of time in your day and leave you exhausted and falling into bed at 8 pm?

I'm sorry to disappear for a week and then come back complaining and bitching,* but this is a highly frustrating morning for me. I have no real food in my refrigerator, so need to get dressed & showered (which cannot be skipped. Pregnancy does weird things to body chemistry and if you don't shower, you find people stepping surreptiously away from your pregnant woman smelling radius. It's gross) and go OUT for food NOW before I do all those other damnable tasks I have to do today, which includes going to the bank, and telling the people whose house we thought we were going to buy, which would have made at least part of my life easier, NO, we don't want your place cause it would cost us too much to fix up.

I know that there are people in the world with much greater problems than mine. But these are the ones I'm currently dealing with, and they make me sort of cranky, and my contrary Scorpio nature wants to NOT do any of it and lie on the couch eating the Tiramisu that I bought last night for breakfast and watching all the discs of the two last Lord of the Rings movie instead of doing anything else.

Resist. Get work done. Be a good representative of the human race and future mom. Find something healthy to eat, shower, and get tasks done.

And all this without the benefit of knowing later I can knock back a few martinis. Damnit. Sigh.

*About now you're thinking-- why did I miss her? Where is the fun & silly Kim we know and love? She's around someplace, but she really needs a shower.