Four AM thoughts

The hubby & I tend to wake each other up in the middle of the night if one of us needs to go to the bathroom.  Since we both have tiny little bladders and drink a lot of water, it is a rare night when we sleep through the whole thing. 

This morning, about 4 am, he got up.  It woke me, so I figured "what the heck" and went too. (Two bathrooms.  Wonderful invention).  Then, back in bed, cool under ceiling fan and soft white sheets, we both lay there for a long time, sleepless.  He would flop to one side, I would move my legs.  He would sling his long leg over mine and then do this annoying twitchy-spasm thing he sometimes does, so I would move.  We were trying hard to fall asleep again, very tired still.  But I lay there with those thoughts you get at 4 am, thinking thinking, and knowing that I would never be able to re-capture them properly when awake. 

• The plot for my "fan fiction" of Evil Vampire Willow in Buffy the Vampire Slayer.
• My dissertation. Feel guilty.
• Worrying about the step aerobic routine I need to write for my new class I'll teach Wednesdays & Fridays.  Plan music to go with it.
• Thinking about evil ex-boyfriend and maybe writing a tell-all blog entry on how bad he was; deciding that gives him way more energy on my part than he deserves.
• Thinking about hammocks.
• Hear the cat's litter box (an automated one) going off and making its scraping happy noise, hoping it doesn't get clogged.
• Trying to sleep.  Thinking over and over again the word "sleep sleep sleep sleep."
• When that doesn't work, try the chant:  "Om Mani Padme Hum" (The Jewel in the Lotus).
• Bellydance outfits I want to make.  Silk Painting. 
• Thinking about blogging.  Wishing I wrote like blogger A or blogger B.  Figuring if I start doing it now, they'll totally know I ripped off their style.  Thinking about my favorite blog entries of the past, what they had going for them.
• Wondering about general health and well-being (doesn't everyone get this?)
• Thinking of Friday plans.  What kind of going-away present to get for a guy I sort of know, like as an aquaintance, but who once seemed to have a crush on me, so you don't wanna get something too personal?  Also, what appetizer should I make to bring?
• Think about junior high kids who were mean to me. Resolve to not think about that anymore.
• Hear cat meow;  listen to see if she actually has caught a bug who needs to be scooped up and rescued from her claws of torture.
• Flip over on tummy.  Feel hubby flip over on his tummy.
• Wonder what hubby is thinking about. 
• Think about Tarot cards.*  Want to get better at reading the whole deck, and not just the major arcana.
• Think about bellydance class/troupe I want to join.  Does the leader of the troupe remind me too much of a grad school teacher I hated?
• Finally, finally, fall asleep.
• Alarm clock goes off seconds later.  (It seems that way).
• Hubby says to reset it for an hour later.  (The re-rack).
• Lie there, tired.  Plan blog entry.  Fall asleep.  Wake up more than an hour later cause, in resetting clock, accidentally turned volume down.

*After going to the link on Tarot cards and getting a "free reading" to a question, I am a little weirded out at what the reading seemed to imply.  It's very interesting, the Tarot.  If you go there, use the Celtic Cross Spread.  :)